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Look who is the new Scentsy lady to all her friends! I've been a consultant since the 18th and I've been very excited about it. Today I was actually introduced as "Jessie, the Scentsy Lady"....awesome.

I haven't been blogging much lately. No real excuse. I've had tons of stuff going on that is totally blog worthy....but I guess putting it all out there to read is me admitting there are problems, and really, who likes to do that?

My cousin is getting married this weekend. That means the whole family will be in from all different states to visit. I do miss them....but that is alot to take in in one weekend. I have a load family to say the least.

I've continued to lose weight. My smaller portions have made a really big difference. We start a fitness challenge at work on Monday so I hope to start the treadmill on Monday as well. This goes on until the Friday before Memorial Weekend...when bathing suit time officially starts for me. Ugh!

I hope everyone has a great weekend and stay positive on the weight loss goals!

Fat Tuesday

Holla! I lost a pound! Go me, portion control works, ha. Hopefully I'll really see some weight come off now. April 4 we are starting a weight loss challenge at work. Maybe this will motivate me to get my big butt back on the treadmill. I also want to get back on the 3 day diet. I only did it for about 3 weeks before but noticed a difference right away. The weight loss challenge is over the Friday before Memorial weekend...perfect! Cute bathing suit....here I come!

Wordless Wednesday

Are you better?

I have a little rant! This is directed at no one in my family (all though I do have some same issues with this). How can family just turn their back on you? How are the people that should be there for you no matter what act like you don't even exist? Why do people treat facebook like the freakin bible or something? Like if you are friends with them on facebook then we can't be friends. Really? Get an effin life. IT IS JUST FACEBOOK.

Family should always be there, no matter what. Even when you don't agree with them to the fullest....if they need a shoulder to cry on, you should offer. Maybe it has to do with how I was raised, I don't know. Family means the world to me and I also pass those values on to my friends. When my friends need me....I'm there.

Do people really thing they are so much better that they don't need their family? Your family is what shaped you into the person you are today.

Fat Tuesday

I only gained .2 from last week not bad. I started those HCG drops yesterday. We will see how I do on them. I've cut down portions alot so that has helped and I haven't had the money to run and get fast food for lunch so that helped as well.

I would love to actually be in a bikini this summer. I know I won't have a "perfect" body. But, I'm only in my swimsuit around family and I would hope I would be comfortable enough with my weight by then to sport a bikini this year! Here's hoping!

Hope everyone else is doing good on their weight loss goals as well!

Five Question Friday

Finally it is Friday! I'm over this week. Ready for a fun weekend. I have shopping planned with my sister-in-law. I got tons of gift cards for my birthday and I need to use them up. Like up with Mama M. if you would like to participate. 1. Have you ever testified in court? For what? No! And hopefully I never have to. 2. Do you still have your wedding dress? Yes! It still hangs in my closet...waiting to be preserved in a box....from 3 years ago. 3. Is there a special place you like to go when you're happy, sad, stressed, etc.? I like to go anywhere I can be alone for a few. Even if it is just in the bedroom...but usually the only time I get to myself is in the shower. 4. If you have kids, do they sleep with you? If you don't have kids...will you let your kids sleep with you when/if you have them? We do not let our kids sleep with us. When the hubby goes hunting my 10 year old does sleep in our bed. Recently the 1 year old has been waking up at 5 a.m. so I put him in bed with me for 1 more hour of sleep (for me) but this is not a normal day to day thing. 5. Do you watch late night TV? I have to watch a little TV to get sleepy before bed. Have a good weekend!

Really?

It's really dumb when you think about it. Why do we care if we lose a follower? We don't even know most of the people that follow us anyways. But I lost 2 followers this week. Maybe it is because of my lack of posting or maybe I'm lame. Or maybe...just maybe they are smarter then me and figured out how to unfollow blogs. I've been trying and trying and I can't. So to all those that would like to unfollow me...I wish you well, but tell me your secret to unfollow as well.

Anywho.....I still want to do a post on the Shattered Lives project that my daughter did but I don't want to do it at work because I get very emotional and I just have been a little busy at home. I still love my blog...and love letting things out.

I've recently rediscovered that some friends still need me. I thought that our close friendship was a thing of the past but now I know...they heart me just as much as I heart them. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and be responsible if you are drinking (sorry, I will start preaching that).

Fat Tuesday

Fat Tuesday! Yay! And I was actually loving my weigh in results! I lost 3 freakin pounds last week!!! Awesome! I guess all those headaches and not wanting to eat paid off. lol. About the headaches, I went to the doctor, he said they were stress related. Go figure I'm stressed out. I'm so glad I paid a co-pay for that tidbit of info. A little rant....I lost a follower. It doesn't bother me so much that I lost one. What really bugs me (and I know this sounds mean) I've been trying to unfollow some blogs for MONTHS and blogger won't let me delete them. I don't want to to know when they post stupid shit ever hour. I'm over it. I started following a lot of blogs when I first started blogging and now....that's just not what I want to read anymore. I hope everyone has an awesome week. I plan on posting about my families experience with the Shattered Lives project and why I was MIA last week in the blog world. I was on an emotional roller coaster that I hope no one ever has to experience in real life.

5 Question Friday

Finally it is Friday. I know I have been away from my blog all week, but I've had very good reason. My daughter participated in a program at school that was one of the most emotional and hardest things I've ever witnessed as a mother. I will blog about it on Monday. Until then, feel free to link up with Mama M.

1. Do you know what your REAL hair color is? O yes! My hair is so dark and it was hard to keep up with the roots that I know just pretty much dye it my natural color so I can go longer. Why do I color you ask? I've had grays since high school. It sucks. 2. Do you plan ahead for summer, or fly by the seat of your pants? I don't plan to much. This will be the first summer that I've had all 3 kids to worry about. Should make for an interesting summer. 3. What is your favorite meal to cook? Pork chops and fried potatoes hands down! 4. Do you get offended by not receiving thank yous? If I go to a bridal shower or baby shower...yes I do get offended. If it is just a birthday, not so much. 5. How did you meet your best friend? I have a few besties. But the one that comes to mind is we meet on "weird" circumstances. In the beginning we didn't care for each other much. But within the past 2 years we have become very close. I could not imagine her not a part of my life. She is the ONLY one that I talk to in some form every day (facebook, text, email or call).

Fat Tuesday

It's the REAL Fat Tuesday!!! I lost a pound last week! Between these awful headaches and sharing dinner with Blake my food intake has gone down alot. Plus, we partied for my birthday and Saturday and I didn't eat much....just drank wine.

Hope everyone enjoys it!

Shattered Lives of Montgomery Co.

Tomorrow my daughter is participating in a great program to help tell teens about drinking and driving. The program is called Shattered Lives of Montgomery Co., you can check out last years on you tube. Student and parent participation is a must to make this program work. They stage a realistic accident scene. They have movie people come and do the "accident scene". After the accident scene they other members of the shattered lives program return to class. Every 15 minutes the Grim Reaper and a state trooper pull one of the member out of class. This signifies that every 15 min. a person dies of a drunk driving related accident. About two weeks ago I was asked to write my daughters obituary on the spot. Like I said they make this as realistic as possible. When the Grip Reaper pulls the child out of class, someone reads the child's obituary. That was by far the hardest thing I had to do as a parent. I cried the whole time I wrote it. My daughter is NOT a cryer. I asked her if she was prepared to hear what I would write for her. She said she already told her friends it is the one time they will see her cry. Tomorrow will be a very hard and emotional day. They also take the kids somewhere overnight. No cell phones. I will have no contact with my daughter after viewing the accident scene. I've been away from my daughter before, but not after leaving her this way. This will be a long 24 hours for me. Highly emotional I'm sure.

"The dinner"

So, remember the other day when I posted about admitting I was scared?

Well, Alexys had dinner with her mom Wednesday night. First time they have talked or seen each other in 7 months.

I was worried that Alexys was possible going to get hurt again or that our relationship would change. For the past 7 months I have been her only motherly figure. As hard as it is, I love it. Don't get me wrong I want her to have a relationship with her mother but she causes a problem with how I parent. And seeing how Alexys lives in my house...I feel she should live by my rules (which Alexys agrees with).

They had dinner, even went for ice cream. Alexys said it went well but was...weird. She knows they are never close but she wasn't really looking for that. She said something about not needing her to be a "motherly figure" because that is what she has me for!

That's when it hit me!

No matter what happens between Alexys and her mother it will never change the relationship we share together. I by no means am saying that I am a better mother. But we do "mother" differently.

Her mother is very controlling but also tries to be her friend. While I like to have a little control, she's also 17 and needs to start getting prepared for the real world. I'm also more of an affectionate person. I tell all my kids I love them before they go to bed. I like hugs. While I know Alexys hasn't been use to this day to day since she's only lived with us 7 months out of her life, I think she likes it. She always tells me she loves me back. Once a week or so I even get a hug squeezed out of her. She makes posts from time to time saying I'm a great mom...she doesn't realize how important that is.

My boys have loved me from the beginning...I'm their birth mom. But Alexys, I had to earn that love. When she introduces me to her friends as "my mom"....I honestly get teary eyed.

I love that girl!

5 Question Friday

Yay! Not only is it Friday....but it's my BIRTHDAY!!!! Ready for a good weekend too. It is only 8:15 a.m. and it has already been an awesome day! Feel free to link up with Mama M. 1. Have you ever forgotten your child in a store or at school? No! I am one of those over protective parents. I use to have to be touching my son in some way so I knew he was close. People are crazy these days and will steal kids. While I know I am a bit extreme sometimes....maybe you have to be. 2. Where did you go on your very first date? (Like...first first, not first with your spouse or current significant other!) I don't remember. But I'm sure it was a Mexican food restaurant. 3. What's your "silly" fear? (We're not talking water and heights.) Driving next to or behind 18 wheelers. I've always been like that. My daughter shares this fear. But you know those 18 wheelers that are carrying pipes or wood....yeah, I can't be behind them. I picture a pipe or piece of wood becoming loose and going right through my windshield possibly killing me. My sister feels the same way about that. We had a long talk about it on a road trip one time. 4. Confrontation: do you cause it, deal with is as it comes, or run far far away? I usually don't cause it....but I do not run away. I stand my ground. If it has to do with my kids....I get ugly fast. 5. Wood floors or carpet? I have carpet in the bedrooms and wood floors in the rest of the house. I like the look of wood floors but I HATE cleaning them!!

Fat Tuesday

I lost another 1/2 pound. Better than nothing. I've been stuck in the 160s for a really long time. I'm hoping in the next week or two I can be a 150 something. But really, I'm not to concerned with the number...I just want this shit to look good. I need to find time to squeeze the treadmill in and that will make a big difference. Hope everyone else is doing well also.

A great Anniversary

Today is mine and hubby's 3rd wedding anniversary. Friday (also my birthday) we will be together 11 years! I have to say....my husband has already out done himself this year.

He switched shifts at work so he could get off at 5 so we could go to dinner. This morning when we woke up, he asked if I was ready to get married. When I got in my car....there was a card waiting for me. I cried before I even opened it. It was so thoughtful of him to have it waiting for me. Usually he buys it the day of and hands it to me at dinner. I opened the card, and it sings "I Swear" by John Michael Montgomery. And he writes: Time Flys when you are having fun.

I love this man more than he will ever know. He has helped me be the woman I am today and he doesn't even realize. I've became both a mother and wife because of him.

Tonight is date night. Alexys is watching the boys. For the first time in a long time, we are going out just the two of us.

All my love....All my life