Fat Tuesday

I've hit a new low.  I'm almost back up to 160 and I'm NOT ok with that.  This past weekend was girls camp weekend and we ate ALL. WEEKEND. LONG!  I seriously need to change my eating habits and get on the treadmill.  The holidays will just make it worse.  Ugh.

Fat Tuesday

I gained a pound.  I feel more and more like a fat ass everyday.  But, I don't do anything about it...so how can I bitch about it.  I have a slight love affair with food, I can't help this.   Hope everyone else is doing much better.

Fat Tuesday

I only lost .2 pounds.  I have no motivational words this week.  I feel very blah about my weight....    Until next week!

Fat Tuesday

I didn't gain or lose, I would say that makes it a pretty decent week!  I don't know how it happened but I'll take it.  Hope everyone else did well this week!



Fat Tuesday

Yay!  I lost a pound!!  I drank slim fast for breakfast last week, that might have helped.  I have been having peanut butter sandwiches this week for breakfast and Chick-fil-A almost every day for lunch.  Still sticking to my meal plans so that makes me happy!  Saving money at the grocery store anyways.

Hope everyone else is doing good as well.

Fat Tuesday

So I gained a little weight.  I'm pissed.  Why is it when it was my time of the month I LOST WEIGHT and now that it is over I GAINED!  That just doesn't make sense.  So, during lunch I went and bought some Slim Fast.  I need to do something.  I eat crap at work, I know I do.  But I love food!!!!     I hope everyone else is doing better with their weight loss goals!

Fat Tuesday

I lost around half a pound.  Good deal! 

I have attempted the whole "meal planning" thing.  I went shopping on the 18th for dinners for 2 weeks, Monday-Friday meals.  Surprisingly, it is working.  I OFTEN would go to the grocery store and then go again in a day or two and then again and again.  So, I am now saving money on that.  If I could just stop going out to lunch everyday at work that would help alot!

I'm not a crazy meal planner yet...not that they are "crazy" anyways.  I don't have some fancy sheet to plan out my meals and put all the ingredients I need for each meal in a column.  I just use an old fashion notebook for my grocery store shopping.  I bought a week at a time calendar for the fridge from Hobby Lobby and now the whole family knows what is for dinner as well!  So far, everyone seems happy.

Hope everyone else is doing well.

Fat Tuesday

I feel like every Tuesday's post is alot of the same o crap.  Yes, I gained a little over a pound.  What do you do?  I like food and hate to exercise.  Maybe I'm trying to start a "healthy" looking trend of curvy woman around my area...it might catch on.  Is being a size 14 the worst thing in the world that could happen to me...I think not!

We did start meal planning at our house and I am hoping that helps both the financial part and eating crap all the time. 

Hope everyone is doing well on their weight loss.

Fat Tuesday

Another week has gone by where I haven't even looked at that stupid treadmill in the garage.  But, I did somehow (by the grace of God) lose a pound!  Not sure how, I still eat crap and don't seem to get any exercise but I'll take it.

I hope everyone else is doing well with weight loss.

Fat Tuesday

So I lost a pound.  I'm not really excited, it was probably just water weight.  I need to get on the ball but there just isn't enough time in my day.  I only get 5-6 hours of sleep a night as it is so I can't cut much more of that out.

Hope everyone else is doing awesome with their weight loss.

Fat Tuesday

I HATE this day!!!!  I gained a little more.  It's my time of the month so I'm hoping it is just water weight...but I'm thinking that's not it.  I have got to get out of my funk!  I love food, this I know!  How can I give up all the yumminess?  There has to be a compromise somewhere....

Hope everyone else is doing well with their weightloss.

Fat Tuesday

I am beginning to hate this day of the week more and more.  I gained a pound and a half.  Ugh!  I know it is no ones fault but my own.  I'm the one that chooses to eat crap and then not work out.  But I danced my ass off Saturday and thought that would count for something.  Clearly not!

Hope everyone else is doing MUCH better than I.

Fat Tuesday

Well, I only lost .2 pounds.  But, it's a loss just the same.  My husband and I went out of town this weekend and eat like king and queens so losing anything is awesome!

I recently did a friends boudoir shoot and we made one of those hardback book at Walgreens.  It turned out AMAZING!!!  And, now I really want to do one.  So to do that, I must lose a little and tone up.  I've done it before it is just finding time to get on the treadmill now.  Having an extra kiddo in the house makes these things hard.  But I'm determined!

Hope your weight-loss journey is going well too.

Fat Tuesday

Call the presses!  I lost a pound.  Really it's not that big of a deal.  Last week was water weight I think with my period crap.  Sometimes, I hate being a girl.  Like I really need something to make just a little bit chubbier once a month.  Ugh.  My neighbor and I are looking into taking a Zumba class like twice a week and if I though in the treadmill I think I will totally see some results.  I hope everyone is doing good on their weight loss.  Sorry I've been so MIA from blogger in twitter....but know that I miss all of you guys!



Fat Tuesday....almost a week late.

I have been SO off my game this past week or so.  I gained a pound last Tuesday.  What pisses me off even more about it?  The whole week before I had tummy troubles and was unable to keep any food in my system.  I SHOULD HAVE LOST!  But nope, I gained.  Awesome!

April didn't have get guest post ready this week either...but she did finally do her first post in her new blog, True Confessions of a Skinni Cow.  Hope everyone else did much better then me!

Fat Tuesday...and another guest post

I'm not even sure how it happened, but I lost 2 pounds!  I weighed myself first thing this morning.  Unfortunately with the way things are at work lately, I was so stressed out I didn't even get a chance to be excited about it.  But 2 pounds, yay!!  I'm starting to get squishy again and need to fix that.  I have good intentions while I'm at work but...when you come home to a husband, a 18 month old, a 10 year old and an 18 year old, you don't always get to do what you want.  I know if I just started eating better it would make a big difference, it worked before.

And now it is time for the third installment of my guest blogger.  Also, she has a new blog.  She hasn't posted yet, but be on the look out!  True Confessions of a Skinni Cow

Seeing is Believing… 

Do you ever look in the mirror and just not see yourself?  I honestly thought that it was just me or maybe only overweight people, but the more people I talk to the more I realize everyone has their moments when they just don’t want to see themselves.  Until recently, however, I didn’t notice that was the case for me. Now looking back it so obvious that as much as I disparaged the various squishy, icky parts of myself,  my gaze never took in the whole me.  Maybe it was a defense mechanism to keep me from being depressed by a rather lardy me, but it also kept me from seeing the new me that was trying to get out. It was actually Jessie who made me take a good hard look at myself and see the changes that all this hard work had done to my body and my health.  Before that, I still only saw a generic version of fat me… losing 20, 30, 40 lbs was all great, and trust me I was seriously happy, but it was so difficult to wrap my mind around the amount of change that had made. 

We went dress shopping for Easter (it was one of my mini goals) and I said, in my then-usual negative way that I thought the size she thought I could wear was being being ‘too ambitious”.  She didn’t give up, though and I tried on not only the size she said, but 2 other smaller sizes (really, clothing manufactures, some consistency would be fabulous). 

THEY FIT!!!!

Oh, my, God.  This was the first time I cried in the dressing room for a GOOD REASON.  I may have even hugged Jessie, and I’m not a huggy kind of girl.  Unfortunately, once you start looking in the mirror, it’s hard to stop, lol.  I find myself glancing every time I pass one, just to see if anything has changed today.  And she must be going crazy because it’s all I want to talk about these days… what I’m eating, the gym, crunches, ect.  So I want to say a huge THANK YOU for being my biggest supporter and most amazing cheerleader to Jessica.  You really can’t change yourself with out a TON of support, friendship (& the occasional reality check!) of a really great friend.  You’re certainly not getting it from the skinny mean girls!!!  That’s a topic for another day

Fat Tuesday...guest post part 2



I am beginning to hate Tuesday.  I dread weighing in.  I eat crap and I know it.  I don't have time to exercise unless I want to give up sleep and I get so little of that already that wouldn't be smart.  I gained 1.6 pounds this week.  I sit here shaking my head as I type this.  If we could have a world with out bread I think I would be ok.

Here is another awesome installment and guest post from Beauty Sale Shopper about her amazing weight-loss.

Don't tell anyone....

That was my philosophy for the first 2-4 weeks on weight watchers.  So they saw me eating better.  It's not like this is the first time I'd tried to diet, right?  I was completely paranoid that if anyone figured out that I was serious this time they would be discouraging or try to sabotage my efforts.  Seriously, I knew the that the least bit of negativity would completely ruin it for me.  Feelings were hurt during this time period.  I had to decline lunch invites and not eat mom's cooking without explanation.  My biggest concern was a (now ex!!) boyfriend and his snotty know-it-all attitude.  For some reason, I did talk to him about it and you know what?  Everything I was doing was so wrong, according to him.  Hmmm, really?  Let me tell you what I was doing and what my results were and you can figure out just how much he knew.  Everyday I spent at least one hour at the gym, not including walking there and back.  Also, sticking to the weight watchers plan religiously and losing IN THE FIRST 4 WEEKS....13.8 POUNDS!!!

Now I know the first two entries on my guest post were pretty negative, but that's how it was the first month of this.  When friends started noticing and when my family saw that I was beyond serious this time they did something that I SHOULD HAVE expected, but DIDN'T.  THEY SUPPORTED ME.  Considering the journey I'd just begun...I was going to need it.

Until next weeks installment....

Fat Tuesday...and a Guest post

Ok, so I gained a little.  What do you do?  I eat crap and don't exercise.  I'm not surprised.  I only gained .6 but still, I gained.  I always have good intentions of eating right and exercising but...I don't really have an excuse to not do it.  So until next week....I'll leave you with my guest posting..

My personal friend, April aka Beauty Sale Shopper, has lost ALOT of weight to date.  She looks like a different person.  If you check out her blog...you will see that she doesn't really blog anymore.  I have been trying to convince her to turn it into a weight loss blog.  She is truly motivational!  I will try and convince her to let me post a picture when this series is over.  Anyways, I asked her if she would do a guest post about her weight loss journey.  She said yes and began writing....and realized she had a lot to say.  So we will break it up.

It all started on Valentine's Day.  Due to my (then) boyfriend's crazy work schedule, it being a school night (how romantic can a Monday be, really?) and probably a bunch of hormone-related chick stuff.  I was totally miserable.  Time to torture myself, so I step on the scale and freeze.  OH. MY. GOD!!!  Being too shocked, devastated really, to do anything else, I go straight to my bed where I cry my eyes out for several hours.  How did I let myself become this bloated, disgusting cow?!  After staring at myself and my bulges/rolls/dimples/multiple chins for awhile, I borrow my mom's laptop and spend the next hour and a half researching diet pills, surgeries, ect.  That's when I landed on Weight Watchers online.  I could do it, they didn't make you eat specific foods (I'm a very picky eater) and if I did it online no one could look at me.  I would be in control.  Did I deserve to be in control?  Not with the way I had treated myself before, but I had motivation, the money and no desire to be this disturbing blob of ickiness forever.

Over the next few days, and with the help of the Weight Watcher website, I set some short and long term goals for myself.

short-term

lose 25 pounds

lose 50 pounds

lose 75 pounds

size 12

size 8

shopping @ a non-fat lady store

new swimsuit

walk up thei stairs without hurting

long-term

lose 115 pounds

To Be Continued next Tuesday.....

Fat Tuesday

Thank God for short weeks.  So, I only lost .4 pounds but I think that is really good since we just came back from a long weekend at camp.  You can't diet at camp....it's not allowed.  So I have a challenge for myself.  I still am not bikini ready.  We go camping again on Labor Day and I want to be in that bikini!  So I'm back on the diet and either the treadmill or walking around the block with the baby in his stroller.  I can do it...I've done it before.  Ugh....need some time and motivation...

Hope everyone else is doing well.

Fat Tuesday

It is just that....a FAT Tuesday.  I gained a pound.  I been blah about the whole weight loss thing so really it is my own fault.  Let's take today for example...went to Target for lunch and I could have just left and gone back to the office.  Nope!  My fat ass walked right up to the food part, ordered a yummy big pretzel with nacho cheese and a Pepsi!  THAT'S WHAT I ATE FOR LUNCH!!!!  I sit here typing this and shaking my head at myself.  I need to snap out of this.  I need to at least watch what I eat if I'm not going to exercise.  Lord help me!

Hope everyone else is staying on track better then me.