Happy Anniversary....to me!

4 years ago I married the love of my life.  12 years ago from this Sunday I met him!  Little did I know the very first time I walked into a bar as a single lady (it was my 21st b-day) would be my last.  I've gone through so much with this man and I thank God everyday for bringing him into my life.  I got an amazing daughter right away with him (my step-daughter for those newbies) and later 2 beautiful little boys.  Life is perfect.

And this morning, on our anniversary he still surprises me.  I get into the car to go to work and a card is sticking out of the visor for me.

I love this man!

Sassy bitch bangs

I went and got my hair done for my birthday last night.  I'm one of those people that gives my hairdresser totally control.  I figure it is only hair and it will grow back or I can change it if I don't like it.  So, when I showed up yesterday here is how the convo went down:

Hairdresser:  "so, what are we doing today?"

Me:  "I don't know.  I want something different.  Do what ever you want?"

Hairdresser:  "do you want to go lighter? darker?"

Me:  "really, i don't care.  Surprise me!"

She plays with my hair a little and gets to work.  I don't ask what she's doing.  I don't know until the color is in, it sets, and my hair is washed and dryed.  But in 12 years she's never let me down (except when my hair turned pink when i was prego).

And after she cut my bangs she whispered "Now you have sassy bitch bangs".

And I'll wear them with SASS to!

I might be back!

I haven't blogged since early December.  Why?  I'm not even really sure.  I still read tons of blogs though.  Recently, I've noticed alot of other bloggers blogging about how to make a successful blog.  That's when I realized...I don't have a "thing".  I'm not a mommy blogger, a photography blogger, a step-parent blogger, an awesome wife blogger, a reality tv blogger....  I'm not just one thing.  I'm all those things!  I love being a mom, a photographer, a step-parent (although I don't call myself that), a wife and this girl LOVES So You Think You Can Dance!!!

So yeah, when you read me that's what you get....complete randomness!  But that is who I am.  I have had people recently try and change or "censor" WHO I AM....I'm not going to do it.  This is my effin blog!  If I want to talk about the color of the sky, my dumb family or why the cleaning lady at work refuses to put the toliet paper on right I will.  If you don't like it, DON'T READ IT....that is your choice like it is mine to right it.  =) 

Love yall!

It doesn't get easier....

Today would have been your 6th birthday, Alayna.  We all thought that as time went on things would get easier.  We thought once the trial was over things would get easier.  When we knew you were with your brother, Grandma and Uncle Kenny we thought things would get easier.  THEY DON'T!

You are thought about almost daily by everyone that knew you.  I only met you a hand full of time yet you cross my mind often.  I can't even imagine the pain your daddy is going though but know that he loves you dearly.  He is still having a very hard time dealing with your passing.  I don't believe it will ever get easier for him.

Know that we love you and celebrate the life that you did get to live your short time on earth.  Grandma is releasing balloons for you today so look for them.

Love you!